The one that switches off the leukaemia. The one that costs $5000 full price. The one that is my insurance policy.
I'm sick of feeling nauseas and tired. I'm sick of bone pain. I'm sick of feeling like I can't do things and go places and enjoy myself. I feel like I'm just trudging through life. I want to feel light and happy and energetic.
I know my doctor won't be happy with my suggestion. I'll remind him he said I'm 'probably cured'. If the leukaemia returns I can return to the medication, of course. Or maybe I can try an alternate drug that does the same things with fewer side effects - it's different for each patient.
I want to return to feeling normal. Wish me luck!